"she felt something different, it did not make a lot of sense" (S71)

she felt something different, it did not make a lot of sense at first but in her mind her thoughts,it was too heavy for to carry sometimes and she saw the person in the video radiating a sense of calmness and clarity in his mind. Even though Jesse could not make out what she felt or what was happening,she knew that she needed a similar peace of mind as the person in the video. So she watched a few more of it. Well, she could not make out the most of it. The person in the video mentioned chanting the name of God to be the best method of enlightenment. Even though it all felt very fuzzy to her at first she started following the instructions given in the video. As she continued with it, things turned out different from what she had expected. She got more confused about little things and her entire life every day.But she felt she should have faith in it for once and not quit easily and continued with the practices and watching more videos.It all felt like a new venture, her versus her in the beginning, because she would often fail to discipline her thoughts but later on, while she kept practicing spirituality it started feeling comfortable to her and later she got very used to it. By practice, she had disciplined her thoughts so well and her mind was more clear and calm than ever before. Now, when she revisited the videos she had previously started with, she found a deep sense of meaning in everything the person. Now, she had answers.